I find it interesting that the word self moderation is apart of my Kindergarteners curriculum. I don't think many adults know how to properly use the term and yet, I expect my 5/6 year old's to get it. Grant it, I ask that they take 1 tissue, 1 squirt of hand sanitizer/ soap, 3 pumps of paper towel, color on the full piece of paper etc. When I go out into the world (myself sometimes included in some of this) I see adults with 5 pumps of hand soap. Reality check, 1 pump is all you need. More soap does not mean cleaner hands. 2 pieces of paper towel is the same as the 10 mostly dry pieces you use. (although thanks for actually washing your hands)
This feeds into the "SUPER size me" of most restaurants as well. We want so much of things we don't need but we take it because it is there. My example for tonight, mhey favorite restaurant Frontera. It is a tex-mex food and I love it. Chips and salsa are on the list of things that make me a happy girl, and this place gives you anew basket of chips and bowl of salsa when you didn't finish the first. I am a happy girl, until I leave that is. I eat so much and will keep eating it even though I am full. You can roll me out of that place!
As I was driving home, I came to a conclusion. I either need to learn self moderation at a restaurant and make good choices OR just not eat out at all. This is hard to do, since most of my social endeavors involve going out to eat. I do know that you can ask people to eat at your house or to meet at someone's house, but that puts the pressure on someone to cook... blah, blah, blah, excuse, excuse, excuse.
For now, I need to stick with my conclusion: learn self moderation OR just stay home. =)
50 days until my goal of feeling better in my clothes. It was not a day full of good choices but tomorrow is another day to start. (I only say tomorrow because I made the bad choice at dinner and I ate so much I will not need my last meal because I will still be full UGH!)
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Monday, April 30, 2012
BEAST
Okay! This is my blog on getting me to be BEAST! I was coaching gymnastics and I AM BEAST was our saying so I figured I would pick it up for my fitness journey. I decided to start by telling what I feel is my story.
MY STORY:
I have realized that, like most women, I am not happy with my body. I am almost 28 (June 5th), 5'2" and 130 pounds. I realize I did not get the gene that allows me to easily eat whatever I want and remain thin. I am in no ways over weight, but seeing what side of the family I take after and working with a bunch of women who have a 15+ years on me, I realize I need to start now. I need to start now so I can make the changes I need to.
MY EARLY YEARS:
Ironically I realize I was never happy with my body. I was a competitive gymnast until I was 15. I quit because I wasn't happy and I wanted the teenager life style (big mistake). With gymnastics I was able to eat whatever I wanted because I did not gain weight. I remember being happy that I gained a pound back in 8th grade and I wrote in my diary about it. I want to have curves (ie boobs, I always had a butt) like the other girls, not all the muscle ( I had a beautiful six pack) When I quit I joined other sports such as diving and dance team but neither held up to the rigorous demands of a competitive gymnast working over 20 hours in a gym. I gained weight (70 pounds to around 115 in a year) and added some height on me. From there I continued on with my eating habits developed when I was younger such as lots of fast food, big "healthy" dinners and an extra dinner here and there at a friends. That takes me into....
MY MIDDLE YEARS (also know as college)
I continued on with my ways, surprisingly not really getting the freshman fifteen but still just kind of soft. I worked out some and was able to keep things off by working out, dancing the nights away and eating what I wanted. Somewhere in there I got the curves I wanted (ie boobs) and it was all good except I hit my highest weight at the age of 21 (stupid beer) of 135 and I realized things needed to change. I really just started eating better and lost the weight and fluctuated between 120 and 125. This continued on...
TO CURRENT DAYS:
When I was 23, I took a teaching job in Georgia, far away from my family because I realized that I need to grow up and really there were no jobs in Michigan. Over the past 5 years I have still fluctuated in my weight but the high went up to 130. I realized though that for the past 2 years I have really only bounced between 125 - 130 and it bothers me. I have been able to recognize that I have had a really stressful 2 years and maybe one day I will write about it, but I think that will be a story for another time. I do know that my body acts badly to stress though and that will help me gain.
ANY WHO:
For awhile I was okay with my body. I can recognize its not really bad, I do love that I have my curves but I realize that my soft is becoming unwanted. I feel that there has been a huge shift in society with being healthier lately (or I just didn't pay attention) and that plays a lot into my thoughts. Although I mentioned my weight often, I have been reading enough on fitness to recognize that it is not the end all be all. I would like it to go down but I would prefer the clothes I own to fit me nicer instead. I also have struggled with the fact that I don't want to give up my complete lifestyle. I LOVE FOOD, I LOVE UNHEALTHY FOOD, but I need to eat it in moderation so I do love whats most important, myself.
SO HERE WE GO:
I don't know as of right now how I hope this blog will turn out. I don't know if I will post daily, weekly or ever again. My hopes and dreams are to channel the negative thoughts into positive ones, feel like I am not depriving myself of the things I want and yet still seeing results. I do know I have a first goal point of feeling better in a bikini for a camping trip on June 21st with my friends in Michigan. SO that is where I will start tomorrow.
COUNTDOWN: 52 days until first goal of feeling better in my clothes.
MY STORY:
I have realized that, like most women, I am not happy with my body. I am almost 28 (June 5th), 5'2" and 130 pounds. I realize I did not get the gene that allows me to easily eat whatever I want and remain thin. I am in no ways over weight, but seeing what side of the family I take after and working with a bunch of women who have a 15+ years on me, I realize I need to start now. I need to start now so I can make the changes I need to.
MY EARLY YEARS:
Ironically I realize I was never happy with my body. I was a competitive gymnast until I was 15. I quit because I wasn't happy and I wanted the teenager life style (big mistake). With gymnastics I was able to eat whatever I wanted because I did not gain weight. I remember being happy that I gained a pound back in 8th grade and I wrote in my diary about it. I want to have curves (ie boobs, I always had a butt) like the other girls, not all the muscle ( I had a beautiful six pack) When I quit I joined other sports such as diving and dance team but neither held up to the rigorous demands of a competitive gymnast working over 20 hours in a gym. I gained weight (70 pounds to around 115 in a year) and added some height on me. From there I continued on with my eating habits developed when I was younger such as lots of fast food, big "healthy" dinners and an extra dinner here and there at a friends. That takes me into....
MY MIDDLE YEARS (also know as college)
I continued on with my ways, surprisingly not really getting the freshman fifteen but still just kind of soft. I worked out some and was able to keep things off by working out, dancing the nights away and eating what I wanted. Somewhere in there I got the curves I wanted (ie boobs) and it was all good except I hit my highest weight at the age of 21 (stupid beer) of 135 and I realized things needed to change. I really just started eating better and lost the weight and fluctuated between 120 and 125. This continued on...
TO CURRENT DAYS:
When I was 23, I took a teaching job in Georgia, far away from my family because I realized that I need to grow up and really there were no jobs in Michigan. Over the past 5 years I have still fluctuated in my weight but the high went up to 130. I realized though that for the past 2 years I have really only bounced between 125 - 130 and it bothers me. I have been able to recognize that I have had a really stressful 2 years and maybe one day I will write about it, but I think that will be a story for another time. I do know that my body acts badly to stress though and that will help me gain.
ANY WHO:
For awhile I was okay with my body. I can recognize its not really bad, I do love that I have my curves but I realize that my soft is becoming unwanted. I feel that there has been a huge shift in society with being healthier lately (or I just didn't pay attention) and that plays a lot into my thoughts. Although I mentioned my weight often, I have been reading enough on fitness to recognize that it is not the end all be all. I would like it to go down but I would prefer the clothes I own to fit me nicer instead. I also have struggled with the fact that I don't want to give up my complete lifestyle. I LOVE FOOD, I LOVE UNHEALTHY FOOD, but I need to eat it in moderation so I do love whats most important, myself.
SO HERE WE GO:
I don't know as of right now how I hope this blog will turn out. I don't know if I will post daily, weekly or ever again. My hopes and dreams are to channel the negative thoughts into positive ones, feel like I am not depriving myself of the things I want and yet still seeing results. I do know I have a first goal point of feeling better in a bikini for a camping trip on June 21st with my friends in Michigan. SO that is where I will start tomorrow.
COUNTDOWN: 52 days until first goal of feeling better in my clothes.
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